By Tracy Moad
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June 27, 2021
For the last couple of years I have had words or phrases that seem to occur over and over toward the end of the year. I have learned to pay attention to them because they ring true. The word for Jan. 1, 2018, was “rest”. after a long, long battle with alcoholism, my husband passed away September 18 of 2017. Rest. Rest for him, from his struggle. Rest for me from the worry, turmoil, and uncertainty that this disease brings each and every day. Rest for the battle weary ones who loved him. Rest. Jan. 1, 2019 was “reset” all the dials go back to zero. 2018 was in the books, a new chapter had begun. Time to regroup, refocus, and move forward the best I could. This year I have had a few words that seem to pop up, recommit, revive, renew, restore….a lot of “re” words, oh, and grace, a LOT of grace! I wasn’t compelled to write them down quite yet, so decided to take a walk instead. Passing by the dumpster in the apartment complex I walk through, I always look to see the amazing amounts of junk that people put NEAR, (not in), the bin. Today, there was a hefty stick as tall as me, leaning against the fence. My thought was, “my daughter would love this for hiking”, so I grabbed it and kept walking. Really, really clearly Psalm 23 came to my mind, particularly verse 4: Yea, though I walk through the valley of the shadow of death, I will fear no evil; for You are with me; Your rod and Your STAFF they comfort me.….He leads me….He restores me. He directs me with His staff. The last decade has been the hardest ever! Fighting battles I never thought I would fight . Losing loved ones, family and close friends, has been all too common in this decade. My life doesn’t even resemble what it was 10 years ago….except for this one thing, this MAIN thing….He is with me. He was with me then, He is with me now, and He goes before me into the years to come. The Lord is my Shepherd. I shall not want. He makes me lie down in green pastures; (He makes me rest) He leads me beside the still waters. He restores my soul (He resets) He leads me in the paths of righteousness for His name’s sake This year I didn’t get a specific word, what I got was an object. The staff will always serve to remind me that Jesus, my Good Shepherd whose staff comforts me, has walked with me through the last decade and before that, and He will continue to walk with me into the next decade…and beyond that Here’s to 2020 and the next decade Happy New Year!